I think I'm in pre-mourning.
My body is still not dealing with this warfare very well. For the last 2 days I've had nothing but extreme nausea inflict my whole body. It's not illness, of that I'm absolutely sure.
It's my heart breaking, fearing that I'm gonna lose someone I really care about. Sometimes my heart's pounding so fast and so strong that it might just jump out of my chest.
God, I hate this, but I guess I have to go through this for a reason, whatever it may be.
I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to stand this physical trial, but I guess I'll have to wait til next Friday to see what's gonna happen next.
Lord, help me endure this. Give me the strength I'm gonna desperately need.